Another post is in order

I've been neglecting this blog a little this week. I have my reasons, most notably writers' block. There are so many things I'd like to say here but I feel restricted because of people who know me in person and know about this blog. It's not that I don't trust them, it's just that I don't like to lay everything about myself down in one place. Different people I know, know different things about me. Even the one person who knows the most about me, does not know everything, although he's pretty damn close.

Even if I just threw caution to the wind, there is a fear of people getting offended by things I may post here that they may read and think I should have talked to them about rather than seeking solace on here. For me at least, I find it easier to talk to people who may be completely detached from my life and my situations rather than those who know the people involved. It really helps to discuss things without fear of starting gossip or betraying confidences.

But what the hell, to anyone who may be reading this post and knows me in real life, please be aware that certain things I say on this blog I want to stay on this blog. If I want to discuss them with you, then I will bring up the subject, otherwise please just don't ask. Do me that courtesy if nothing else.

Right now, I feel in pain, I thought things were getting better, but I've had a bit of a relapse. I can't help my feelings, and it's a bitch wanting what I can't have, or even worse wanting what I probably can't have, that every now and again just seems nearly within my grasp. Maybe if I really felt that I couldn't have it, it would be easier to get over.

Sorry for the depressing nature of this post, I needed to vent. Normal blogging shall resume shortly...